So I was just outside throwing the ball to the dog. I was sitting on the stairs next to the lavender plants and I spotted a tiny tiny spider on my hand. I watched it make a web between my fingers and the heel of my hand. Took the little guy about 15 minuted to get all my fingers. After that I went to put the little guy on a lavender flower when I realised there was quite a large spider web next to me with thousands of these little spiders. These little spiders were baby spiders. And behind the baby spiders was the mother spider. In reality, the mother would have been about the size of a 20 cent coin. But this is what I felt it looked like:
It’s my best friends birthday celebration today. We are getting a whole bunch of friends to go kayaking on the river. Which is fucking awesome seeing as how I came up with the idea.
My friend just called me to bring going out clothes for later. I don’t want to go out. I think. I haven’t been out in ages. That means I have to wear heels and I suck at wearing heels. Maybe we can just go hang at a bar instead of going clubbing.
A lot of things have been pissing me off lately. And I have been getting really angry at myself because I don’t know if these things are genuine reasons to be upset over.
This weekend I am going back to my hometown Esperance for a camping trip over the weekend. I’m really looking forward to it because:
a) It will be the first time I have been swimming since May last year,
b) The beaches are AMAZING in Esperance,
c) I will be able to catch up with all me friends in the one spot.
The original idea was for it to be a girls camping trip. There are 5 of us, and it will be the first time we will be able to actually catch up properly in over a year because I have been away. So there I was thinking it was going to be just us 5 girls, camping, having a few drinks, chillaxing on the beaches.
Now the boyfriends are coming and friends of friends are coming and when I spoke up about it being a ‘girls only’ thing they basically said too bad.
I think the real reason I am upset is because I always have a plan in my head and I look forward to that plan but then when it changes, I get anxious. Nothing seems to ever work out the way I plan it to. Usually because some other person throws an idea or two in there and so the outcome is different from the original idea. I also think it is because I am in a rut with uni/work and everything seems to be working out well for my friends.
It also bothers me that whenever I see my friends, their boyfriend is usually not too far behind. I can’t say anything about it because I will get the whole “Peta has never had a boyfriend so what the fuck would she know”. I can’t be myself around my friends anymore.
I got back from work about an hour ago. I want to go to bed but all I keep on thinking about is the weekend.
One of my friends has a tumblr account but I hope she doesn’t see this. Sorry, if you do.
HD is fine for watching documentaries. I am currently watching the BBC’s Frozen Planet and the visuals are stunning.
But when I want to watch a movie, more specifically an action movie, HD makes it look like a musical production. All the actions are exaggerated. There is no cinematic quality to it. It reminds me of how Home And Away is filmed.