So this morning was a bit interesting. Spent all morning up until lunch time in the hospital.
Woke up with really bad period pain. When I say bad, I mean intense agony. I have never had it this bad before. So I was doing deep breathing just trying to lessen the pain when I started to get pins and needles in my hands. My hands then curled up into themselves and I couldn’t move them. I then commenced freaking out a little bit and got host-dad to take me to the hospital where I had blood tests and also these really good pain relief drugs.
“Do you understand economics? I mean big-time, prewar, global capitalism. Do you get how it worked? I don’t, and anyone who says they do is full of shit. There are no rules, no scientific absolutes. You win, you lose, it’s a total crapshoot. The only rule that ever made sense to me I learned from a history, not an economics, professor at Wharton. “Fear” he used to say, “fear is the most valuable commodity in the universe.” That blew me away. “Turn on the TV,” he’d say. “What are you seeing? People selling their products? No. People selling the fear of you having to live without their products.” Fuckin’ A, was he right. Fear of ageing, fear of loneliness, fear of poverty, fear of failure. Fear is the most basic emotion we have. Fear is primal. Fear sells.”—World War Z by Max Brooks